![]() Then came the moment that once I realized that we would all die some day, even my Father, the gentleman who could do anything i my eyes. ![]() All that I knew to do was to assure him that we would take good care of my Sweet Mother, my disabled brother, the farm, etc. As my Father became worse it got so I couldn't understand him and it broke my heart as he tried so desperately to tell me something and I just couldn't understand him and he was too weak to write. It broke his heart when he had to sell them. Then i put toy cattle on the window sill because he loved his cattle. I put up bird feeders outside the window so he enjoy the birds. For the first few weeks we were able to talk and enjoy each others company but he was going down fast. Ironically the nursing home was 5 minutes from my home and since I had just retired due to disability I couldn't do anything except for one, I was able to go sit by my Dear Fathers, almost every day. He was moved to a nursing home because he was to frail and my Mother wasn't far behind him. My Father wouldn't be going home to the small farm my Father worked so hard at raising cattle cattle, planting large gardens by hand with my sweet Mother. I had two non-curable diseases and I couldn't understand, why me? Then a few days later was rushed to the hospital. Almost three years ago I became very Ill and ended up having no choice but to retire after almost 38 years at the same company. That was 40 years ago yet it seems like yesterday. My Father didn't raise his voice but I think I would have felt better if he had. My Father, very softly said, "That's more than I make" then turned and went back to work. I showed my Father my check and he looked proud, but I couldn't keep my teenage mouth shut as I went on and on what a horrible check and how little money I made. I remember when I got my first job after high school, I stopped by the little country store my Father owned and worked 12 plus hours a day at. My Father worked three jobs to raise his family of five kids. I believe the he fell deeper in love with her year after year. My Father never swore, never drank, never looked at another woman. I always thought growing up, if I could be just half the man my Father is, I would be a really good man. "Cats in the Cradle" by Harry Chapin - A song about a dad who put off spending time with his son, and now his son, a grown man, has become his father."Father and Son" by Phil Collins - A Father who is passed on leaving a message for his son."Who You'd Be Today" by Kenny Chesney - Remembering Someone Who Died too Soon."Dear Father" by Neil Diamond - Reflecting on Life Dreams."Hell Yeah" by Neil Diamond - Wanting to Be Remember for a Life Well Lived."Dance with Me" by Luther Vandross - Son Reflecting Mother and Father Dancing."My Father's House" by Bruce Springsteen - Strained Unresolved Relationship."He Didn't Have to Be" by Brad Paisley - Honoring Step-Dad."If I Could" by Barbra Streisand - A Loving Life Message for a Son."Letter to Me" by Brad Paisley - Older Self Message to Younger Self."A Song for Dad" by Keith Urban - Honoring Dad."Father and Son" by Cat Stevens - Father trying to Explain Life to a Son.Best Father and Son Songs Describing Multiple Types of Relationships
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